the last time this happened it was about a year ago. the passing of my grandfather G.edward. in recent years i really didnt have the opportunity to get the know the man, for reasons which are unimportant. i however did manage to see him twice before his passing. i remember walking into his flat, him lying there still. dead people generally look asleep.

today is the funeral. the last few days have been rather emotionally different from the previous encounter with death in the family. please do pray for his soul.
ohh a month since the last entry. this week had seemed relatively shorter. however i fear for the week ahead. but i do know that the national day weekend is gonna be awesome cause im organising a party. boys and their booze. its just us men a bbq pit a swimming pool and loads of fun.

i met the debaters today after such a long time. its always a great fun to meet up with them. extremely engaging bunch. it was the finals of the inter-schools. ensued by dinner. i had to make it brief though. i promised shaun id help shoot the sji old boys reunion.

tomorrow is tennis swimming and lan with the boys. they are actually staying over at the moment. mm butch!
ive come to realise how important certain groups of people have come to have grown in my life. and its time i learn to treasure them. it doesnt matter whether they know it or not. it matters to me that they are of a significance and it matters to me that i need to plough in effort to keep it that way.

even if it means giving up other wants. because its hell more fun this way.

im at a point in my life that, the friends i make now will probably be the same ones a decade down the road sitting having coffee or a beer or plain old shisha smoking if im still at it. the place dont matter, its the company that counts.

im happy with status quo.
hello my name is de souza timothy martin. today is the start of my life. it may look very familiar. but its going to be different. i promise. its time i be who i wanna be. no point settling for less simply because i dont care enough to bother.

its a status quo plus plus. (and minus minus). i can understand the point of just not doing anything and just simply floating downstream. but i now believe that kind of idea is simply full of shit.

aim for the stars at least i will get the sky. first step? take the bus to camp and embrace it with open arms.
am i confused with someone im not.

i know not who i am.

this is just some random train of thought.

i know not what i want.

im confused as never before

i know not what to do

my mind aches and my heart sore

i do now kneel in prayer

i seek your grace

powerful omnipotent, my maker

grant me in your heart a place.

amen.
this birthday i must say has been above all other things, very enlightening. ive learnt alot about both other people and of myself. been able to quite accurately trace my steps backward.

somethings have resurfaced and some choose to remain down under covering themselves with layers of denial.

maybe these things hope that the self fulfilling prophecy theory is very much true. however ladies and gents its not what you say to others its about what you believe in your heart is how this one goes.

as usual my float down stream self is handling this problem. i think i need to go for a trade in for a go get the things i want/need self or at least get programme garang2.0 installed cause the previous version obviously isnt working.

i know im queer. haha awesome.
NTU rejected me. i have an issue with it. why is the appeal an online one?! seriously i think thats screwy. i really die die wanna study locally. i have too many things going on to go anywhere else.

i think ive told too many people this that im starting to add pressure on me. i dare them to give me an interview. to me, i would only probably only accept them rejecting me if i get interviewed. as it is im one up on most applicants. at least what i believe.

i finally got a full framed machine. its awesome the perspective the colour the noise control. all darn fantastic. with a 20 prime on. people start to look miniscule if they stand too far away.

3 days of work then the long weekend. cheers to off n lieu!

the last time this happened it was about a year ago. the passing of my grandfather G.edward. in recent years i really didnt have the opportunity to get the know the man, for reasons which are unimportant. i however did manage to see him twice before his passing. i remember walking into his flat, him lying there still. dead people generally look asleep.

today is the funeral. the last few days have been rather emotionally different from the previous encounter with death in the family. please do pray for his soul.
ohh a month since the last entry. this week had seemed relatively shorter. however i fear for the week ahead. but i do know that the national day weekend is gonna be awesome cause im organising a party. boys and their booze. its just us men a bbq pit a swimming pool and loads of fun.

i met the debaters today after such a long time. its always a great fun to meet up with them. extremely engaging bunch. it was the finals of the inter-schools. ensued by dinner. i had to make it brief though. i promised shaun id help shoot the sji old boys reunion.

tomorrow is tennis swimming and lan with the boys. they are actually staying over at the moment. mm butch!
ive come to realise how important certain groups of people have come to have grown in my life. and its time i learn to treasure them. it doesnt matter whether they know it or not. it matters to me that they are of a significance and it matters to me that i need to plough in effort to keep it that way.

even if it means giving up other wants. because its hell more fun this way.

im at a point in my life that, the friends i make now will probably be the same ones a decade down the road sitting having coffee or a beer or plain old shisha smoking if im still at it. the place dont matter, its the company that counts.

im happy with status quo.
hello my name is de souza timothy martin. today is the start of my life. it may look very familiar. but its going to be different. i promise. its time i be who i wanna be. no point settling for less simply because i dont care enough to bother.

its a status quo plus plus. (and minus minus). i can understand the point of just not doing anything and just simply floating downstream. but i now believe that kind of idea is simply full of shit.

aim for the stars at least i will get the sky. first step? take the bus to camp and embrace it with open arms.
am i confused with someone im not.

i know not who i am.

this is just some random train of thought.

i know not what i want.

im confused as never before

i know not what to do

my mind aches and my heart sore

i do now kneel in prayer

i seek your grace

powerful omnipotent, my maker

grant me in your heart a place.

amen.
this birthday i must say has been above all other things, very enlightening. ive learnt alot about both other people and of myself. been able to quite accurately trace my steps backward.

somethings have resurfaced and some choose to remain down under covering themselves with layers of denial.

maybe these things hope that the self fulfilling prophecy theory is very much true. however ladies and gents its not what you say to others its about what you believe in your heart is how this one goes.

as usual my float down stream self is handling this problem. i think i need to go for a trade in for a go get the things i want/need self or at least get programme garang2.0 installed cause the previous version obviously isnt working.

i know im queer. haha awesome.
NTU rejected me. i have an issue with it. why is the appeal an online one?! seriously i think thats screwy. i really die die wanna study locally. i have too many things going on to go anywhere else.

i think ive told too many people this that im starting to add pressure on me. i dare them to give me an interview. to me, i would only probably only accept them rejecting me if i get interviewed. as it is im one up on most applicants. at least what i believe.

i finally got a full framed machine. its awesome the perspective the colour the noise control. all darn fantastic. with a 20 prime on. people start to look miniscule if they stand too far away.

3 days of work then the long weekend. cheers to off n lieu!

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